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An Internal Affair
- Sam Logan
- Jun 16
- 5 min read
Updated: 8 hours ago
Autism speaks to ADHD through poetry
I like the quiet.
The predictable mornings.
The soft edges of routine,
the comfort of “just so.”
I don’t ask for much—
a plan, a map, a little peace.
But then you…
you barge in like a storm
mid-sentence,
mid-thought.
You want movement.
You want more.
More input, more action, more feeling.
You chase novelty like it’s oxygen.
I watch in silence
as you jump into conversations
I would tiptoe around.
You shout truths I’ve barely unpacked.
You run while I’m still tying my shoes.
I don’t like conflict—
you live in it.
I freeze, you flare.
I shut down, you explode.
When things get tense,
I need to leave the room
and sit in the soft silence of nothing.
But you stand and fight
with a passion I can’t feel in real time.
I want rest.
You want stimulation.
I crave control.
You pull me into chaos.
I whisper.
You scream.
I mull over every word.
You spill them out before I can blink.
Still—
I walk miles because you need it.
We learn deep because I crave it.
We obsess because it’s what we both do.
Sometimes we clash like fire and ice,
but sometimes—
we burn bright.
You push me out of my shell.
I keep you from falling apart.
You make us brave.
I make us wise.
Together, we are
a tangled kind of brilliance.
An exhausting friendship.
A quiet war.
But somehow,
we always show up.
Together.
Even when we don’t know
which one of us
will speak first.
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