About Neurospicy Poems
“My body feels first, my mind understands later™.”
Neurospicy Poems is my ongoing project exploring neurodivergent emotional processing through lived-experience models, character-led inner voice work, and reflective poetry. Everything here grew directly out of trying to understand myself – not from theory, but from observing the patterns inside my own nervous system and translating them into language. Over time, three interconnected systems emerged: the Neurodivergent Inner Voice Framework™, the Awareness-to-Understanding Pathway™, and the Completion Loop™. These now sit within the overarching Awareness-to-Understanding Model™, which integrates my Pathway, Completion Loop, Framework, and Method into a single mind–body processing system. Together, they form a clear map of how my emotional process works and why my reactions make sense once I can see the full sequence.
How It Started
I began writing in April 2025 because I was overwhelmed, dysregulated, and stuck in repeating emotional cycles I couldn’t explain. Writing became the only place where I could slow down my thoughts long enough to understand them. As I wrote, I started to notice a structure behind the chaos. I wasn’t hearing one internal voice – I was hearing many. Each one had a function, a perspective, and a specific way of interpreting the world. Naming these voices didn’t create fragmentation; it helped me see the internal logic that had always been there. This is how the Neurodivergent Inner Voice Framework™ was born, and how my poems gradually became a form of mapped self-understanding.
Everything that came after – the Pathway, the Completion Loop, and the Method – grew out of trying to understand why my emotions, body, and thoughts moved at different speeds.
The Neurodivergent Inner Voice Framework™
The Neurodivergent Inner Voice Framework™ is the system I developed to make sense of the different internal voices that shape my emotional and cognitive experience.
It includes seven voice types: System Awareness & Movement (the Navigator), the Integrating Voice (True Self), and groups of Root, Adaptive, Somatic, Emotive, and Imprinted Voices. Each voice represents a distinct processing mode – identity, autonomy, safety, connection, bodily response, or relationship imprint.
I don’t view these voices as symptoms or parts to “fix”. They are internal roles with clear emotional logic, and they help me interpret what’s happening inside me. The framework is not a therapeutic model and it isn’t based on psychology. It grew entirely from lived experience, reflective writing, and the patterns I repeatedly saw in myself.
Within the wider Awareness-to-Understanding Model™, these voices appear at different stages of the Pathway, influencing how my body reacts, how I interpret, and how I reach Understanding.
The Awareness-to-Understanding Pathway™
My emotional process does not follow the linear models I was taught. My body reacts first, long before I have conscious access to emotion or meaning. Awareness comes after that. Understanding comes last. This process follows a consistent sequence:
Event → Body Response → Awareness → Interpretation → Understanding → Action
When I move through every stage, my behaviour is aligned. When I act too early, my behaviour is protective rather than intentional. This model explains why I sometimes shut down, snap, over-mask, withdraw, or feel regret afterwards. It isn’t emotional immaturity – it’s the natural delay between bodily reaction and cognitive understanding in a neurodivergent system. Describing this sequence allowed me to finally understand myself, instead of treating my behaviour as random or shameful.
The Pathway functions as a mind–body bridge – translating the body’s signals into cognitive clarity while giving the body the comfort, pacing, and regulation it needs to settle.The key organising principle is simple: the body feels first; the mind understands later; the Pathway reconnects them.
Mind–Body Integration (The Core of My Theory)
At the centre of all my work is the relationship between body and mind.
Body → Mind needs translation
(language, clarity, naming, context)
Mind → Body needs comfort
(soothing, grounding, pacing, co-regulation, rest)
The Awareness-to-Understanding Pathway™ restores this connection by bringing sensation and meaning back into sync, so behaviour can reflect both.
The Completion Loop™
I often don’t reach emotional clarity in the moment. My mind goes back to the situation later – not because I’m stuck, but because my nervous system is trying to finish what it didn’t have capacity to complete earlier. The Completion Loop™ captures this process. It gives me a way to return to the moment, understand what happened, and close the emotional “open tab” with compassion rather than criticism.
Once I reach understanding, rumination naturally stops, and the regret dissolves. This is how I repair my own patterns. This is where emotional integration finally happens.
The Loop is also how I restore mind–body connection after fast-track reactions where the body protected first.
The Neurodivergent Voice Method™
The method is the practical pathway I use to apply all of this. It follows four steps:
Unravel → Give Language → Reduce Internal Pressure → Restore Connection
I use this through writing, voice notes, reflective conversation, and quiet internal noticing. The aim isn’t to regulate first; it’s to understand first. Once the meaning is clear, both mind and body settle, allowing for aligned action instead of reactive behaviour. This method has become a reliable way for me to complete the emotional process even when I can’t do it in real time.
What This Work Is
My work is a translation of lived experience into structured, usable models. It offers a compassionate alternative to clinical approaches that often overlook the depth, speed, and contradiction of neurodivergent emotional life. It provides a map for people who feel deeply, react quickly, process slowly, and understand late. The entire system – Model, Pathway, Loop, Framework, and Method – is built from lived-experience logic, not academic theory.
What This Work Is Not
This is not therapy, a diagnostic tool, a behavioural program, or a self-improvement system. I am not trying to make anyone calmer, more compliant, or more regulated. I am trying to help myself – and others like me – make sense of the internal logic that already exists.
About Me
I am a late-identified neurodivergent writer, mother, and reflective practitioner with a master’s degree in Coaching & Mentoring. I live with Autism, ADHD, PDA, and C-PTSD – not as labels that define me, but as processing realities that shape how I think, feel, and relate. Neurospicy Poems is where I translate those processes into language, models, and imagery that others can recognise themselves in.
Every poem is a snapshot of my internal processing.
Every character reflects a real emotional function.
Every model is drawn directly from the patterns my body and mind have always followed – long before I had the words for them.
Neurospicy Poems is not simply a collection of poems; it is a mapped emotional landscape created from lived experience, shared so others can find clarity in their own.
